today..
the day that all PMR candidates will receive their results.
i got mine. iT SUCKED. i didn't get wat i wanted. I'm so not in the mood now. so disspointed. ewwwwww...
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9:17 PM
Gimme d yay yay.. haha.. it's Christmas Eve ya'll..i'm so stoked.The happiest Christmas of my entire life.I'll be goin' to church later, haha. Hangin' out wit ma fwendz. keke...
Praise the Lord.
hahahahha...yay ..
i've never been this happier in my life. Celebrating Christmas...I'm SO EXCITED..
keke
-happy momentz-
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1:49 AM
*smilez* i'm begining to love my blog even more now..*laughs*. Now that it's better than my was-said-pinkalicious layout. I find it kinda cool now. I'll enjoy better moments writting in my blog. I wanna thank Ralph and me godbro, Nick for helping me with it, i really had i rough time with it, till you guyz came to my rescue. THANKS.. :)
CHIRSTMAS nearly here. Can't wait, i'll be going to me friends house tomorrow, staying over, then going to church.*haha* CAN'T WAIT...
i wonder how is it gonna be dis year, i bet its sure fun, hahax...
keke..
however, i really wanted to spend my christmas with my Best Friend..
but i can't.. haihz...
sad sad sad..
mizzin her loadz..
keke....
My ballet performance foemation is finally done today, gosh it was tiring...
hehe...
at least one of my burdens are off my shoulder...
and..tada.. next year.. 6th January...
PERFORMANCE....
keke..
hahahahaha....
but i'll be taking a rest lerz..
wiped out..
bu hoo hoo..
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10:17 PM
This year's holiday weren't even holidays. I had to go back to school for Choir practices..
It might not be a big deal, but singing can be really tiring. Afta all that, i had to go for ballet classes 3 times a week, for 2 hours. But thank God that after the few weeks Choir practise came to an end, but not for long as i have to go back to school on the 27th. And then, comes the day that i've feared, 28/12.. PMR results. This month is a very stressful month, i have to results to take, 1 my PMR and the other my I.S.T.D results..worrying that i've flunked it... ":(
*sighs*..
my post is till here...keke...
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4:14 AM
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6:10 AM
wait a boring holiday..haihs...wish i was in school now...kekei miss my school so much...miss my best friends...miss my lil' sis...buhoohoomost of all i miss Denyse & Cheryl...haihx...i think they had a better holiday than mine..for sure...i only got to stay at home, go for ballet classes and more of stayin at home...huhu...Denyse went to Pahang and KL..Cheryl? no idea..keke..My ISTD ballet exams are just around da corner..ish..so stressed out...but not as stressed out as my Form 5 friends..well, tat means i'm not the only one feeling miserable...hahax...haihs, my leg hurts, teacher said i had a sprained ankle..(must be from da fall i had in school)wat to do? i still have to live with it..bohoohooother than tat, all i get to do is msg my friends, watch tv,eat,sleep,sleep,sleep and eat..hahax..so fat larz..haha..if Pek kie hears me sayin tat, she'll screw me..hehe...niways...wat a boring holiday i had....
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11:43 PM
people say tat friends are not forever,people say they're just like waves,they come and go,but i dun think so,cause mine aren't so,they're here with me forever....yea rite la...please lar..haihs...wat da hell is dis...i had a really great group of friends, they WERE perfect, and i couldn't live without them..but then, dis year, they were so ego.I was close to someone, but i didn't ditch them..they tot i did..then, they came out with a question its either you pick us or you pick her..
come on, wat's tat all about, if you'rea true friend, you won't even ask me that question.. but later on, they ditched one of da members there, which is now my BEST FRIEND, we got really really close, we hang out together most of da time, can't live without her...Den, dey did it again, and now dis person is now my BEST FRIEND too, we are all together and we dun give a shit bout those other bit***s...we care and love for each other....LURVE YOU GUYS
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5:36 AM
i belong to me,
i dun belong to you,
My heart is my posession,
i'll be my own reflection...
hahax..wateva..how's my life? I can tell you, its like shit, but actually its not that bad..if i think tat my life is tat miserable, wat about other people out there who's lives are worst than mine?
Afta wat's been goin on this few months, i'm suprised tat i'm kinda over it..(finally)
My friends are like so suportive, and i lurve them so much..
There are things tat are meant for us to give up on. I thought i was goin crazy, there's a time when i really wanted attention, and i got it, missused it, and after tat lost it. But when i had it, i reawlly appreciated it. But rite now, i would rather give my attention to other people, people tat really need it, instead of the people who just take it for granted.
I'm not sayin tat the person tat i used to cared for is taking it for granted but, to me, i've seriously wasted time carin bout tat human. I used to be worried bout her. Putting question in my head like, " is she ok?", "how is she?", "it's raining, will she catch a cold?", My gosh, i was so long-winded.
But later, i didn't care, y?
Cause she doesn't care...y should i care bout i person who doesn't care bout me?
but actually, i did care bout her, my friends ask me to give her up, dun bother bout her, watever she's doin just DUN BOTHER....
The point is, i trust her and i dun really trust people..but somehow i trusted her...i really really did..
it's not easy to just let go, when you actualy have cared bout someone..it's not...
but some people just DUN CARE...
So stupid...yucks...
But dun get me wrong, dis person i'm talkin bout is just an ex- best friend...
I was so into her when i first met her, treated me very well, gave me a noone- can-bully-you-when-i'm- here feeling, and most of all, attention...
then, it started fading, and after tat GONE...
Afta all tat, all i wanted was her to talk to me like when she talks to my other friends....
When i am with my best friends, she just walks over, talk to my best friend and just pretend tat i'm invisible...WOW..hahax...
Then, my best friends knew i was feeling miserable, she aftr tat gave me the attetion and my and my best friend now are like so close...
we hang out together most of the time...
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9:22 PM
